I Will Rise!

"There's a peace I've come to know
Though my heart and flesh may fail
There's an anchor for my soul
I can say "It is well"

Jesus has overcome
And the grave is overwhelmed
The victory is won
He is risen from the dead

And I will rise when He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise on eagles' wings
Before my God fall on my knees
And rise
I will rise

There's a day that's drawing near
When this darkness breaks to light
And the shadows disappear
And my faith shall be my eyes

Jesus has overcome
And the grave is overwhelmed
The victory is won
He is risen from the dead

And I will rise when He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise on eagles' wings
Before my God fall on my knees
And rise
I will rise

And I hear the voice of many angels sing,
"Worthy is the Lamb"
And I hear the cry of every longing heart,
"Worthy is the Lamb"
And I hear the voice of many angels sing,
"Worthy is the Lamb"
And I hear the cry of every longing heart,
"Worthy is the Lamb"

And I will rise when He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise on eagles' wings
Before my God fall on my knees
And rise
I will rise"

http://youtu.be/_FQb-cVwbKE

I absolutely LOVE this song. The USU Chamber Singers sang this at our concert two weeks ago, and then last night they did it again at the Alex Boyé... Seriously, every time I hear it it chills me to the bone. The music pierces my heart in such a way that I can't even describe. It is such an amazing song, and they performed it so well. So spectacular.

I WILL rise when God calls my name! He is my Savior, my Redeemer, and I love Him so much! Through Him, I can conquer anything and EVERYthing. He has gone through what I am experiencing, and is there to help me. He knows me, He knows my problems, and He knows how I feel. He loves me and wants me to be happy.

And so I will rise as a disciple of Christ and be the best person I can be, with His help! I will stand tall and I will NOT back down!

I will be firm in the faith.

I will be valiant.

Best home teacher ever

..Who just so happens to be Justin's roommate. But he wouldn't have known about tonight otherwise, so that's good.

He sent me this vid on facebook, with the message "Bump this song SUPES loud. Now. And feel free to dance. :)"



So I can't accredit the whole "home teacher of the year" award to him, since he gained some free rider points just by living with him, but still. He's pretty great.

Well that was short-lived.

Single forever? I think yes.

We went for a walk, I wasn't expecting anything. I should have known.

He felt awkward the whole relationship, my foot. He did not once act like he felt awkward. No one else saw it coming either.

Apparently we're like magnets, where he's attracting to me but I'm not attracting to him. Gee thanks. That makes me feel great.

Why the eff did he keep trying to make things work? His logic makes absolutely zero sense. He didn't want to lose my friendship, so he thought maybe he wasn't trying hard enough. So he'd kiss me. Then decide, nope, nothing there. AND DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN A WEEK LATER.

I could understand a little bit of it at the beginning. He didn't know how he felt, he was confused. But when he agreed to date me he told me he had decided he liked me and that he was ready for a relationship. Great. Then what happened between then and now?

Son of a mother. Like seriously. Why would he put me through that? His thought process makes no sense. And he's not a cruel person, so why did he do it?

Can I swear off boys again? I've probably said that dozens of times in the past. But really, maybe it's a sign that I need to serve a mission and forget about boys. I'm going to start actively preparing now, and start my papers next semester.

Decision made.

Now I'm going to go watch Netflix and forget about life.

Life UPDATE!

Life is incredible!

Seriously.
So fantastic. :D

I haven't posted in quite a while. I don't even know where to begin!

So things with Justin have progressed off and on over the past month and a half, and we finally started officially dating this week :3 I like him a lot. We've basically been dating all semester, but he couldn't decide if he was ready for a relationship, lol. But after acting like a couple for a month, we officially are! And he's so fantastic (: (:

I'm working at a call center but I think I'm quitting soon. It's actually not that bad, since we mostly do inbound calls from like infomercials and what not, but I can't work very much since they close at 6 every night. So I'm really not making enough money. Plus I got a job at a local restaurant, but it's their new location that they're remodeling so I can't start till they actually open. But I'm excited to be back in the food business!

School is great, I love all my classes! My relief society president is my TA in my sociology class, so it's pretty awesome. I'm also the secretary in relief society, so I see her quite a bit (: I love my calling! Our girls are so great. It's so fun (:

Institute is pretty much the best thing ever! I love my class. Such an uplifting experience every time I go! (Which is twice a week.) And my ward is wonderful! The bishopric is so great! I have discovered recently that I use way too many superlatives, baha. But anyhoo. Life is the best (:

Conference was a week and a half ago, and I seriously love those men so much! They truly are men of God, and I am so grateful we have them to lead and guide us (: President Monson is fantastic! He's so funny.

I really am not making much sense in this post. It's really quite jumbled and doesn't make much sense. But I'm hungry anyway, so I'm gonna eat dinner. And then go country dancing in an hour and a half! I LOVE DANCING SO MUCH! I'm in a swing class on campus, where we're learning lindy and charleston and what not. SO much fun. Okay, I really am done now. You all are wonderful (:

Sonder

n. the realization that each random passerby is living a life as vivid and complex as your own—populated with their own ambitions, friends, routines, worries and inherited craziness—an epic story that continues invisibly around you like an anthill sprawling deep underground, with elaborate passageways to thousands of other lives that you’ll never know existed, in which you might appear only once, as an extra sipping coffee in the background, as a blur of traffic passing on the highway, as a lighted window at dusk.

My life is brilliant!

Or shall we try another song?
"Everything is great, everything is grand! I've got the whole wide world in the palm of my hand!"

Seriously, though. Life is amazing.

I really like USU. My classes are fun, my major is fantastic, everyone seems really nice, and we already made friends with the boys' apartment next door (; We've basically done something with them, or at least with Justin, every day. (:

Monday we met them at the stake dance, and Justin and Zach walked us home. Tuesday we watched the Avengers on Old Main hill with the two of them, and star-gazed afterward (: Wednesday we went to Day on the Quad with Justin, and I think that was the day I ran into Zach on campus, too. Thursday we went to the football game with them and their roommate Shan, which was AWESOME. And last night we made zucchini bread with Shan and Nick, their other roommate, and played phase 10 while it baked. Shan bailed on us and we went to the institute opening social, but after the free food, the dancing was just really lame. So we went back to their apartment, where the rest of the boys were, and watched Taken... There may or may not have been cuddling involved (; Following which we danced in the rain, went puddle jumping, played on the playground, and ran through the sprinklers! I love boys. (: Not sure what's gonna happen with him, but I at least know it was not a one-sided experience :P

DOCTOR WHO HAS ALREADY AIRED IN THE UK. I FOUND IT ONLINE, EVEN THOUGH IT HASN'T BEEN RELEASED IN THE US YET. WATCHING IT ASAP. #obsessed

I LOVE the Doctor. *sigh*

Update on the Monson party.

Picture wouldn't load earlier... but here it is!

Funny things that happened:

• When we first got there to set up the buffet table, they were taking pictures of Pres. Monson with the decorations. They told him to look and admire everything as they took a picture, and he mockingly went "Oooooh, aaaaah!"
• After they finished the pictures he came and touched each of our shoulders and said "mucho macho" to each of us...... Haha whatever that means!
• When I went to take Elder Perry's dirty plate from him, he did a kind of basketball shuffle thing with the plates to dodge around the person that walked in front of us, haha.
• The kid to the right of Pres. Monson in the picture is in the same ward as Pres. Uchtdorf, Elder Hales and Elder Bednar. When Pres. Monson asked where he was from and he told him that, he asked if they came to church and said to keep them in line :P
• Also, Dieter always comes up to Trent (that's his name) at church to talk to him, and every time without fail claps him on the shoulder and says "you're a good young man." He did the same thing at the luncheon.
• Pres. Monson made us take his cake plate when he went back for seconds "to get rid of the evidence."
• After we took that one too, they decided they needed a picture of him with a piece of cake. As soon as the picture was taken he hurriedly scarfed down a few bites before his daughter, Sis. Dibb, comes over and says "I think you've had enough, Dad." Haha SO cute.
• When I took his plate he grabbed his glass of milk and put his hand over it to make sure I didn't take that too. (We bring him some 2% milk every year. Also, it's very important that it's 2%. He can tell the difference apparently!)
• One of the times he was posing for a picture he said "hurry up, I can't pose all day you know!"
• After everyone was pretty much gone and we were cleaning up, the Monsons walked around the table to look at all the pictures (of him fishing, mostly), and they got back to where they started and he said "where'd my wife go?" Haha he thought he lost her, but they were pushing her wheelchair behind him the whole time!
• On the note of the fishing pictures, he LOVES to fish and his office is full of fishing pictures and whatnot. The flowers and decorations around the buffet table even had a fishing pole added for decoration!
• Apparently he wanted to bring in the actual fish he caught recently, he was really proud of it or something, but they convinced him that bringing a picture of him with the fish would suffice :P

Over all it was just a very fun, funny day! Watching the apostles laugh and joke with each other was great. And Pres. Monson is just hilarious! I love the man. (: