We went for a walk, I wasn't expecting anything. I should have known.
He felt awkward the whole relationship, my foot. He did not once act like he felt awkward. No one else saw it coming either.
Apparently we're like magnets, where he's attracting to me but I'm not attracting to him. Gee thanks. That makes me feel great.
Why the eff did he keep trying to make things work? His logic makes absolutely zero sense. He didn't want to lose my friendship, so he thought maybe he wasn't trying hard enough. So he'd kiss me. Then decide, nope, nothing there. AND DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN A WEEK LATER.
I could understand a little bit of it at the beginning. He didn't know how he felt, he was confused. But when he agreed to date me he told me he had decided he liked me and that he was ready for a relationship. Great. Then what happened between then and now?
Son of a mother. Like seriously. Why would he put me through that? His thought process makes no sense. And he's not a cruel person, so why did he do it?
Can I swear off boys again? I've probably said that dozens of times in the past. But really, maybe it's a sign that I need to serve a mission and forget about boys. I'm going to start actively preparing now, and start my papers next semester.
Decision made.
Now I'm going to go watch Netflix and forget about life.
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