Day 14: Integrity - "Till I die I will not remove mine integrity from me." Job 27:5

I finally made it to the last day. Now, I wasn't completely consistent.. Missed a few days and such. But I finished! That's what matters. And I gave an honest reflection each day, thus developing a greater love for my Savior and myself. And to finish it off, I even attended the temple this evening! It had been far too long. Far longer than I am willing to admit. It was a great experience, as usual. I love the temple so much. I have felt the love of my Heavenly Father and my Savior over these past couple of weeks as I have taken the time to reflect on my life and my values. It has been marvelous. If the Savior came today, I would like to think I'd be worthy to kneel at his feet.

Myself

I have to live with myself, and so--
I want to be fit for myself to know.
I want to be able as the days go by
Always to look myself straight in the eye.

I don’t want to stand with the setting sun
And hate myself for the things I’ve done.
I don’t want to keep on a closet shelf
A lot of secrets about myself--

And fool myself as I come and go
Into thinking that nobody else will know,
The kind of man (or woman) I really am.
I don’t want to dress myself in shame.

I want to go out with my head erect;
I want to deserve all men’s respect,

And, here in the struggle for fame and pelf
I want to be able to like myself.

I don’t want to think, as I come and go
That I am bluster and bluff and empty show.
I can never hide myself from me
I see what others may never see;

I know what others may never know
I can never fool myself! And so--
Whatever happens I want to be
Self respecting and conscience free!

I don't even know what to think of this poem. It's a lot to take in, to comprehend. It's about making the right decisions for me, for my own personal integrity; for self-respect, with a free conscience. Ya know, maybe it's so hard for me to understand because it's something I need to work on. I'd never thought of that. I always thought I had plenty of self-respect. But maybe I really don't. I don't need to be better for anybody else. I need to be better for me.